My relationship with the Timehop app? It’s complicated.
You see, like a significant other, Timehop can be fun to have around — making you laugh and remember the good times. Or it can bring up emotions you weren’t expecting.
More often than not, I find myself laughing at the things I said in the past. I still agree with so many of my candid, sassy tweets (pretty typical of me). I groan at the things I posted as a freshman (so young & dumb, ha). I like to see what’s the same and what’s different.
According to the app, here’s what I did a year ago today.
So, why is that weird?
Last year at this time, my half marathon training was picking up. I had hit the point where each of my long runs was my longest ever. I had never run more than 7 miles, but my training plan began to call for 8. Next week, it would be 9. Then 10. Was I crazy?!
I still remember the feeling of nerves when it would come time to break a distance record. I’d think to myself – could I do it? After all, I wasn’t a real runner. But guess what? I did each one.
When I saw this post today, I couldn’t help but feel a little guilty. Instead of running 8 miles before 10 AM, I had woken up at 8:30 and watched an episode of Gilmore Girls from my bed. I laid around until I gathered up the energy to wander into the kitchen for coffee and, ironically, pancakes.
Looking back, I miss the feeling of accomplishment every time I’d smash a PR. I miss having goals & milestones – pushing myself to meet each one. I miss the sense of pride that I felt each time I did something that I wasn’t sure I could.
My running career has changed dramatically in that it kind of doesn’t exist anymore. I don’t have the desire, let alone the time, to train for a race. Now, I run 3-4 miles once or twice a week. Unlike during training, the when & where are on my terms, which I appreciate.
So today, Timehop got me reflecting. On any given day, Timehop Me is not necessarily better than Today Me. Circumstances change. Priorities shift. Life happens.
I don’t want to use this app as a yardstick to compare my accomplishments. Last year was for fitness accomplishments. This year was for career accomplishments. Both have had their ups and downs, but have shaped me into who I am.
I told you it’s complicated.